My first mother's day. It's been a busy weekend. Matt and I have started to build our yard up, little changes to make our first house our own. I'm proud of us because I think we have made smart choices in setting up our home.
I attended my cousin Kaycee's graduation party tonight and am so proud of my cousin for being herself and working hard. I looked around at all the awesome Mothers in the room and even though no big deal was made of it, I could feel the love and concern in the eyes of my women.
I think that I have a connection and fascination with the women in my life because these same strong, smart and intuitive people have been a part of my life from the beginning. They have kept a large, diverse family connected over the years and it has paid off in the best way possible.
Sometimes no words need to be said, just thoughts and wishes for the future. Happy Mother's Day to my own mother, who is the most amazing, hard-working woman I know, and to all women who know the heart breaking affection that is motherhood and to those amazing women who do their best to raise good people who love their fellow man.
Happy Mother's Day to you Silas' mama
ReplyDeleteMy aunt told me yesterday that she and my uncle remarked on the fact that Silas would have been at this family gathering. The aunts and grandmas and grandpas would have been passing him around as we celebrated my cousin's achievement. I would have been excited for a reason to show him off to his doting family, he'd have been the star of the show.
ReplyDeleteI have such a heavy heart, I try to appreciate the little things but there is not a moment where I am completely ignorant of how my life has changed. There is a hole that can never be filled and even though I know I will go on to have happiness and peace, I will never not regret the fact that I will never see my son grow up and bloom into the special person that I know he would have been.
He changed everything for me and I hope for the strength to accept his loss. I wanted that little boy so much, I just feel lost. My heart aches when I think about everything, I hope for some release.
As I have never felt the loss of a child as you and Matt have I feel your pain just the same. I can only imagine how hard it is to attend functions that you wanted to show that new little one off at.
ReplyDeleteI strongly believe that the parents that loose a child in this life will have the chance in the here after to raise that child just how they would have here. That he will always be a part of your life and your family. Just think of the great stories he will get to watch unfold with his siblings as you and Matt prepare your home to bring more little ones home to and how proud he is to have you are his mom.
Keep your chin up Lynds happier days are on their way.