Random...

Went to visit Silas' grave the other day, they'd installed his headstone and planted sod. I have to admit that it was really hard to visit an unmarked, dirt mound at the cemetary. It looked so nice, granite headstone and grass thanks to the Mormon missionaries who put sod down every Memorial Day. My Grandma Ann's 100 birthday was 2 days ago, I took comfort in wishing her Happy Birthday.

I have a shrine in my yard with the things that were left at Silas' grave, if the cemetary cannot maintain the spot, I will with my own little garden of tulips and green things. I had a moment of peace days ago in San Diego, sitting on the beach with an ocean breeze in my face. What a beautiful place to visit, I would love to be there permanently some day.

Congrats to my hero, Amy for earning her masters and thanks for giving me a reason to visit such a wonderful place. It was nice to travel and put away my sadness for a weekend (mostly), I love my cousins and my family for taking care of me and giving me a vacation from my everyday life.

My home...

Finally, a few minutes to catch my breath. I've been admiring the shadows falling on my floors and the sound of the trains rumbling along. I had a moment of peace looking upon the progress that we have made in the short months since moving into our new home. I got to show it off this weekend, we've "entertained", as they like to say on HGTV.  Nothing big, just a few social events that required me to clean.

In the last few weeks, we have built a new flower bed, raked and cleaned cigarette butts and other debri, planted shrubs, bushes and veggies, mowed and watered and cleaned siding and windows. I am pooped but impressed with myself. I have a home, for the first time since we sold my trailer in Laramie. I know that we will eventually move on from Rock Springs but I am greatful to my son for influencing our decision to buy a house in these times. Hopefully the market will improve and this place that we love will build a nest egg for the future.

Happy Mother's Day...

My first mother's day. It's been a busy weekend. Matt and I have started to build our yard up, little changes to make our first house our own.  I'm proud of us because I think we have made smart choices in setting up our home.

I attended my cousin Kaycee's graduation party tonight and am so proud of my cousin for being herself and working hard. I looked around at all the awesome Mothers in the room and even though no big deal was made of it, I could feel the love and concern in the eyes of my women.

I think that I have a connection and fascination with the women in my life because these same strong, smart and intuitive people have been a part of my life from the beginning. They have kept a large, diverse family connected over the years and it has paid off in the best way possible.

Sometimes no words need to be said, just thoughts and wishes for the future. Happy Mother's Day to my own mother, who is the most amazing, hard-working woman I know, and to all women who know the heart breaking affection that is motherhood and to those amazing women who do their best to raise good people who love their fellow man.